Hey guys, all of you might already know me :) i'm Jolynn aka SiuChing. Currently studying at Sunway University College.
Not going to talk more so yeah, feel free to view my blog. Thankiessss ♥
Say forever farewell to saddie posts and welcome to happie posts. I just read through back all my previous posts. Oh gosh, why were most of them so depressing?! So, from now on, i will try not to be so depressed and sad. I'll try my best to get back on my feet. I promised Blakey that i won't write any depressed post anymore :)
Sue Ann is here with me but it has been her bad day. Wish i could help her and hope things will be going well for her.
Ahh, my head feels heavy since yesterday but nvm, i got my snacks and coffee milk with me xD mmhmm, food does make my pain go away. Sher asked for jogging tomorrow morning at 6am but i doubt i'll be able to wake up that early lol so nah, no jogging for me. Then, me and Sue Ann are going to bake brownies in the afternoon.
So....that's all for today! Toodles! :)
P/s: 'Cause when i close my eyes and drift away, i think of you and everything's okay, and finally now, we're leaving. ["Two is better than one" by Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift]
JojoPattie @11:28 PM
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Holiday's To-Do-List:
1. Haircut
2. Christmas Shopping
3. Paint and Decorate My Room
4. Finish Reading "Say You're One of Them"
5. Online for The Whole Day
6. Help Gigi to Deliver Her Package (17th)
7. Learn to Make Brownies
8. Sleepover with Sue Ann
9. Hang Around with PohYeh
10. Get a New Phone Number
11. Solve My Dilemma
Deleted one thing in the list coz no times to make brownies and i cbf to buy the ingredients.
JojoPattie @8:26 PM
It's all over
Well, this time i have to really make up my mind and choose what's the best decision for both of us. I think i got the idea already and i'm not gonna back out of it. I have to move on and i have to leave all these heartaches. I can't bear it anymore. Thinking about the thing is torturing me inside and i can't see any reasons why we should continue. This time, even loving each other with all our hearts is not enough coz there's a big hole in our relationship. No matter how hard we mend it, the scar will stay there forever. Both of us have fked up everything and now it's time to stop. It's the best for both of us...
P/s: Sue Ann will be here tonight until Tuesday/Wednesday and we're gonna have the best sleepover ever!
JojoPattie @8:15 PM
Pissed!
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Yes! I'm so darn pissed now. What have i done wrong that i deserve to be yelled at? Is it wrong to care for you when all i ever asked was whats wrong? Fine, i won't give a damn about it anymore. I won't ask or ever care if you're feeling sad or whatever. You can feel sad or be in bad mood anytime you want and i won't care. I CBF ANYMORE!
P/s: Just when you thought everything is getting better, they are actually not 'cause eventually, the problems will come back :/
JojoPattie @1:47 PM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Holiday's To-Do-List:
1. Haircut
2. Christmas Shopping
3. Bake Cupcakes
4. Paint and Decorate My Room
5. Finish Reading "Say You're One of Them"
6. Online for The Whole Day
7. Help Gigi to Deliver Her Package (17th)
8. Learn to Make Brownies
9. Sleepover with Sue Ann
10. Hang Around with PohYeh
11. Get a New Phone Number
12. Solve My Dilemma
JojoPattie @9:26 PM
FOL!
Sigh....what's wrong with today aye? Everyone is having a super sad day. FK OUR LIVES. Dad fell down from a chair while trying to change the bulb. Thanks god, nothing bad happened. Chun Mun and Sue Ann are having dilemma over studies and relationship. Blakey is stressed over work now. And me? Sitting here, thinking, with a heartache. It's all my fault and i deserve this. Deserve a broken heart. i don't know what to do or what to say now. There's nothing i could do anymore. I've said what i want to say. I want to have a long deep sleep and wish i would never wake up again. I wanna get rid of the pain in my life. What is life? We have been struggling to live everyday, but it always ended up shitty. Well, at least for my life, it is. So sick of getting heartache all the times. It's even worse than getting hit by a car or cut myself on the wrist. I know i should let him go but i can't. I can't love other guy the way i love him. I feel so sick, sick of my life.
P/s: End my life? =/
JojoPattie @2:36 PM
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
I can't be there for you anymore but i'll love you forever and always. Wo hen ai ni, yong yuan, yi shen yi shi...
JojoPattie @5:56 PM
Emoness gone
Holiday's To-Do-List:
1. Haircut
2. Christmas Shopping
3. Bake Cupcakes
4. Paint and Decorate My Room
5. Finish Reading "Say You're One of Them"
6. Online for The Whole Day
7. Help Gigi to Deliver Her Package (17th)
8. Learn to Make Brownies
9. Sleepover with Sue Ann
10. Hang Around with PohYeh
11. Get a New Phone Number
12. Solve My Dilemma
Shit happened yesterday but i've decided not to let these things let me down. So, i'm gonna get my life back and today, as you can see, my dilemma is considered as solved. One more holiday list is down.
I have to send Gigi's package by tomorrow so another list will be ticked off xD
Haven't started my painting yet since i have to wait for another 2 colors for the mural thingy.
I read 10 pages of the novel yesterday but couldn't read more since there were a lot of things going on my mind.
Talked to Sue Ann this morning and coincidentally, she's facing the same problem as me and it happened yesterday too! The only difference is her problem is much more complicated than mine. Well, at least mine is solved now. So, good luck sis! I'll pray hard for you. Love you :) can't wait to hang around with you next week.
Going to bake cupcakes for Christmas and have to learn to make brownies from my dad xD
Waiting for iphone and then going to change my phone number to maxis.
PohYeh is busy working now but we'll see if we could find anytime to go yum cha.
So, overall, these are the unfinished thing for the rest of the holiday. Hopefully, i could get it done by this month.
P/s: Who's next? :)
JojoPattie @2:56 PM
FML
Today is the worst day of the month. I thought everything is getting better but it's not. The problems are always there. It's just that we choose to ignore them. I can't think anymore and i can no longer stand it. Geez, my life is such a mess. How i wish Sue Ann is here with me now. How i wish Gigi is talking to me now. I'm so tired, really really tired. I don't wanna think deep and make any decisions. It fking hurts.
P/s: Just wanna hide myself...away from this world...away from everything...to a better world with nothingness...
JojoPattie @12:35 AM
New skin, new look, new life...
Monday, December 14, 2009
Bloggie has a new look today :) Spent my time today editing it. Dad is roasting chicken now and i'm so darn hungry. Tomorrow i'm going to start my painting project, going to do some mural painting on the wall. Gonna snap pic of it once it's done :) Sue Ann will be here either this or next week, can't wait to see her again, even though we just met 2-3 weeks ago. Ahh, today's post is so random xD and here's a draft for my mural painting. Forgive me for the ugliness, i'm failed at drawing.
till then, toodles! :)
P/s: Sometimes, truth does hurt the most...
JojoPattie @7:31 PM
Jolynn: 'Cause when i close my eyes and drift away, i think of you and everything's okay, and finally now, we're leaving [December 21st, 2009]
